Glasses

I have a secret. I have a burning desire to wear glasses. Not just any glasses. Hipster glasses. Although I may not have known this term when I set out to wear glasses, over the past few days, I've succeeded in wearing said "hipster glasses." With eyesight that's 20/20 (surprisingly). I don't need glasses. But I want them anyways! I couldn't tell you why I want them, it's just a craving, similar to how girls crave chocolate practically 24/7. Despite what Becca Schladt says about them, I can tell they're pretty popular. Number of people who wore them in orchestra: 10. In calculus today: 4. In zero hour: 1. But I have faith. One day, people will accept them, even Becca. She once tried to stop me from saying "sour" when bad things happened. Fast forward 2 months? She's saying it too. That's what I call winning. And although my glasses may not be complete just yet, I'm still going wear them proudly in class. 

Dearly Beloved.

Beloved is one of the more confusing novels I've read. I can understand how it's won the Pulitzer Prize, which is only given to American authors. It's so complex that the people should feel pride if they completely understand it after reading it once. One of the biggest mysteries that I discovered was that it's also a supernatural fiction novel. Yes, I'm sure we discussed this in class at some point, but I don't remember recall that, and so, it took me a decent amount of thinking to realize that this is also a mildly supernatural novel. I even wrote a reading journal about how Sethe should have discovered that Beloved is clearly an illusion. There's no way she's real, because she's supposed to be dead! And now...almost 24 hours later, I realize that I'm totally wrong. I feel sheepish.













But really, I'm not sure how I feel about Beloved. It might be that it's so confusing, that it's confused me on how I feel about it.

Secrets secrets are no fun...

Today in zero hour, we watched a video about this man who had a website dedicated to people mailing in secrets that they were keeping. They were kept anonymous obviously, so no one would be offended. They weren't all bad secrets, there were actually some pretty funny ones. One that we saw, was sent in on half of a Starbucks cup. It read: When customers are rude to me, I give them decaf. I may never know who that person has, but they have my undying respect.
But what really made me think was how people were unafraid to send them to this website.Sure, no one will find out that you sent it in, but you'll  know. And from my experience, knowing I did something that I probably shouldn't have is worse than someone else knowing. If you break something cheap, people might say, "Oh, just forget about it." But if you broke it, ran for it, and got away, then only you know what happened. I don't know about other people, but I get this feeling of guilt, that I should've stayed and apologized. Basically, I shouldn't have run away. So, when I'm telling someone a secret, I feel like I shouldn't have. They trusted me, and I'm just holding it out for the world to see. Alternatively, they could be exposing their own secrets instead of other people's, but I think most people would find that too personal to do.

All-State Orchestra and College

Perhaps one of the most exciting events of the school year for me, All-State Orchestra is a mash of music and friends, two of my favorite things. Practically three days of fun and sound, All-State has always been a fun learning experience for me. It has been difficult, but that's just part of the challenge. My excitement is somewhat larger than when I first auditioned successfully for All-State. After all, last year, I failed to make it. Since it's going to be my last time, I know I'll greatly miss attending this event.

Anyways, in my quest to go to college, I've had a fair amount of interview, and being completely honest, I've come to enjoy them. They're intimidiating at first, but I always end up relaxing after introductions are made,, probably because I intensely dislike introductions. I think they are stilted and stiff, but I suppose that's the nature of the interviews.